Constant pain?
Posted: Sun May 24, 2009 9:06 am
Hi
I have been a paurasis sufferer for many, many years. I have always had difficulty urinating in public, however I could normally use a cubical in a public toilet under certain circumstances. However I could never use a toilet at work or at someone’s house if I thought someone may be able to hear.
Then a few years ago, while on a long-haul flight I just couldn’t go. In the end, I went into urinary retention and had to be catheterised. I had the catheter for about 2 weeks. Once removed, I was actually the best I had ever been. However, a few years on, I have regressed to basically being unable to go in almost any situation.
I have tried seeing a psychologist, for many sessions of CBT, but still have not been able to make any real progress.
I am starting to think that there may be something more to it. Hence this post. As I mentioned, at work I have always had difficulty. But these days, the difficulty starts as soon as I get to work and sit down. I have an office job, sitting down all day. I find that I have a sense of urgency for the duration of the day. I have seen a doctor and was referred to a urologist and could find nothing wrong.
I think that maybe my constant anxiety in relation to going to the bathroom at work is now manifesting itself in constant pain down there and constantly feeling like I have to go. If I do go to the bathroom, im unable to go (probably because I just don’t need to) and this then starts the vicious cycle. So in the end, I think about the bathroom for the duration of my work day. Does anyone else experience a similar feeling?
I should mention, I have also tried taking anti-depressants for anxiety and these made me 10 times worse so stopped taking them after 2 weeks.
Im also curious to see if anyone has been catheterised before? Im contemplating finding a doctor who will catheterise me and see if this helps the situation once it is removed.
As im sure you all know, I am going insane with this, and just feel that I have tried everything possible with no success.
Thanks
I have been a paurasis sufferer for many, many years. I have always had difficulty urinating in public, however I could normally use a cubical in a public toilet under certain circumstances. However I could never use a toilet at work or at someone’s house if I thought someone may be able to hear.
Then a few years ago, while on a long-haul flight I just couldn’t go. In the end, I went into urinary retention and had to be catheterised. I had the catheter for about 2 weeks. Once removed, I was actually the best I had ever been. However, a few years on, I have regressed to basically being unable to go in almost any situation.
I have tried seeing a psychologist, for many sessions of CBT, but still have not been able to make any real progress.
I am starting to think that there may be something more to it. Hence this post. As I mentioned, at work I have always had difficulty. But these days, the difficulty starts as soon as I get to work and sit down. I have an office job, sitting down all day. I find that I have a sense of urgency for the duration of the day. I have seen a doctor and was referred to a urologist and could find nothing wrong.
I think that maybe my constant anxiety in relation to going to the bathroom at work is now manifesting itself in constant pain down there and constantly feeling like I have to go. If I do go to the bathroom, im unable to go (probably because I just don’t need to) and this then starts the vicious cycle. So in the end, I think about the bathroom for the duration of my work day. Does anyone else experience a similar feeling?
I should mention, I have also tried taking anti-depressants for anxiety and these made me 10 times worse so stopped taking them after 2 weeks.
Im also curious to see if anyone has been catheterised before? Im contemplating finding a doctor who will catheterise me and see if this helps the situation once it is removed.
As im sure you all know, I am going insane with this, and just feel that I have tried everything possible with no success.
Thanks