15 years of paruresis, gotta change
Posted: Wed Jul 25, 2012 8:55 pm
Hi,
Hello to all, I have decided to join your forum for the reason we all know and do not enjoy.
I have had shy bladder since I was a young teen. It has always been something that has stopped me from being able to enjoy life to the max. I am on the verge of turning 30 and the effect that this awful condition had on me during my more social years has been torturous.
I have had enough and am now about to commence a journey towards, I hope, recovery.
I enjoy going out, I enjoy it, alot. But of course when consuming alcohol the horrible thought is never far away, "what the fuck am I going to do when I need a piss?". Usually I would either be keeping an eye on the toilet door, waiting for a lull to dart in and quickly use a urinal before anyone else comes in, and if they do, then scrap that, zipper up, exit...FAIL! If too busy I would use a stall and sometimes depending on where I am I will go outside like I am wanting to make a real important phone call and find some privacy to do you know what.
I can urinate in a closed stall without a problem, and I know from reading other threads and other articles this is not a feat easily achieved by many, so don't want to sound un grateful. But I want to be able to pee where I want, when I want. People around?? no issue.
This condition is preventing me from being able to do a lot of things. So over the coming weeks I am going to be putting a lot of my own time and energy into turning things around. I believe that I can beat this.
I have read the book about shy bladder and have given the graduated exposure process a go for a brief time a few years back. Like others, if I am busting then there aint nothing stopping me, I could piss in the middle of the MCG on GF day. But when the urgency is not that high then lock up is inevitable. I dont know why I stopped but this time I want to keep going with that method, backing it off slowly to teach my body its okay to piss infront of other people.
I was wondering (and I am bracing myself for good and bad news) what other members have experienced on their roads to self recovery. No changes. Partially cured. Fully cured and time frames. Other tips aside from the water loading/exposure therapy??
In 5 months I am turning 30, I am having a big party with all my friends. One thing that I want to reflect on at this occasion is the day (today) that I decided to change.
I would love to hear from any other members and I will keep you posted with my progress.
Jay
Hello to all, I have decided to join your forum for the reason we all know and do not enjoy.
I have had shy bladder since I was a young teen. It has always been something that has stopped me from being able to enjoy life to the max. I am on the verge of turning 30 and the effect that this awful condition had on me during my more social years has been torturous.
I have had enough and am now about to commence a journey towards, I hope, recovery.
I enjoy going out, I enjoy it, alot. But of course when consuming alcohol the horrible thought is never far away, "what the fuck am I going to do when I need a piss?". Usually I would either be keeping an eye on the toilet door, waiting for a lull to dart in and quickly use a urinal before anyone else comes in, and if they do, then scrap that, zipper up, exit...FAIL! If too busy I would use a stall and sometimes depending on where I am I will go outside like I am wanting to make a real important phone call and find some privacy to do you know what.
I can urinate in a closed stall without a problem, and I know from reading other threads and other articles this is not a feat easily achieved by many, so don't want to sound un grateful. But I want to be able to pee where I want, when I want. People around?? no issue.
This condition is preventing me from being able to do a lot of things. So over the coming weeks I am going to be putting a lot of my own time and energy into turning things around. I believe that I can beat this.
I have read the book about shy bladder and have given the graduated exposure process a go for a brief time a few years back. Like others, if I am busting then there aint nothing stopping me, I could piss in the middle of the MCG on GF day. But when the urgency is not that high then lock up is inevitable. I dont know why I stopped but this time I want to keep going with that method, backing it off slowly to teach my body its okay to piss infront of other people.
I was wondering (and I am bracing myself for good and bad news) what other members have experienced on their roads to self recovery. No changes. Partially cured. Fully cured and time frames. Other tips aside from the water loading/exposure therapy??
In 5 months I am turning 30, I am having a big party with all my friends. One thing that I want to reflect on at this occasion is the day (today) that I decided to change.
I would love to hear from any other members and I will keep you posted with my progress.
Jay